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[ ... Man.
Who ever would have thought that she would end up like this? Just.. she had changed her lifestyle completely, she started living just for herself, just doing what she has to do to get by and have a little fun along with it. She was just fine like that, right? .. Or maybe she wasn't, but she's not sure if she wants to admit that to herself. It's all that girl's fault either way, if she hadn't acted like such a hero of justice then she never would have changed her mind.
So in the end, for that girl's sake.. she sacrificed her life, huh? The selfish girl became the selfless one in the end.. it sounds just like a fairytale when you put it that way. A really, really corny one. But she really didn't want Sayaka to suffer by herself. It would have been too cruel. A cold, bad feeling she knows all too well herself.
Well, she's dead now. Not like it matters. She's stuck here in whatever afterlife this is, and that's it. The end of the story...
Kyouko closes her eyes, dropping backwards so she's lying with her back on the ground as if she's trying to sleep. Not like she knows someone's about to pass by though.. ]
Who ever would have thought that she would end up like this? Just.. she had changed her lifestyle completely, she started living just for herself, just doing what she has to do to get by and have a little fun along with it. She was just fine like that, right? .. Or maybe she wasn't, but she's not sure if she wants to admit that to herself. It's all that girl's fault either way, if she hadn't acted like such a hero of justice then she never would have changed her mind.
So in the end, for that girl's sake.. she sacrificed her life, huh? The selfish girl became the selfless one in the end.. it sounds just like a fairytale when you put it that way. A really, really corny one. But she really didn't want Sayaka to suffer by herself. It would have been too cruel. A cold, bad feeling she knows all too well herself.
Well, she's dead now. Not like it matters. She's stuck here in whatever afterlife this is, and that's it. The end of the story...
Kyouko closes her eyes, dropping backwards so she's lying with her back on the ground as if she's trying to sleep. Not like she knows someone's about to pass by though.. ]
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on 2013-06-10 08:49 pm (UTC)But she couldn't help but let out a little sigh as she walked along this place that she was in now. Where was she going? She didn't even know at the moment, all she really thought about was how she let herself get eaten away by...by those emotions she had inside of her. After all, she rejected everyone who had tried to help her...she was so stupid, after all. She was the stupid one, letting herself become like this.
...but still, walking along in this place, she let her eyes swing back and forth, wondering what to do. That's when she seemed to spot...that familiar red hair. That person that tried to tell her what she didn't want to hear in the first place, and telling her that her wish will eventually bound back to her face. Yeah, some ally of justice she was. But...still, she felt compelled to walk towards her, to at least stand next to her as she begins to gently prod the girls side with her foot.]
Hey. Can you hear me? Don't just lie there, what do you think you're doing? [And thus, the poking with her foot continue on.]
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on 2013-06-12 12:13 pm (UTC)[ Maybe she did fall asleep just a little bit, since when Sayaka pokes her with the shoe like that she lets out a whiny noise, her arm moving up to rub her face a little while her eyes are still closed. It takes a few moments for her to even realise who that voice belongs to.
When she does realise it though she lowers her arm, instead opening her eyes and staring at the other girl. Sayaka.. so it really is her, she's really here.. well, of course she'd be. She promised that she'd be together with her, right? So she wouldn't have to be alone the way she had been since her family died, since Kyouko knows how horrible that feeling is, but..
.. It's strange. She always knew what to tell the other girl before, give her advice she didn't even want and didn't listen to. But right now.. she doesn't know what to say. No words come out.
In her surprise, she can't even move up. She just lies there, staring up. ]
Sayaka..?
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on 2013-06-12 06:22 pm (UTC)...I'm such an idiot.
[It's all she mutters out, her expression twists a bit in pain as she grips the fabric of her skirt. She had regretted her decisions, and how she actually acted on them, but...was this a sort of punishment right now, seeing this girl right in front of her? It had to be, there was no way that this sort of backlash could happen.
...but she couldn't stay angry for too long. She speaks up once more, but her voice a lot softer.]
I'm such an idiot for not listening to you in the first place.
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on 2013-06-13 02:11 pm (UTC)So Kyouko quickly scrambles to at least make sure she's sitting up so she can properly look at her. She looks normal, just like before.. thank god. ]
Yeah, you're a real moron! Glad ya realised it!
[ She can't help but react in her usual way at first, mostly just out of sheer habit. But the harshness drops after a moment, and then she gently moves her hand against the other girl's shoulder, shoving her just a little bit. ]
.. I know. I should've been more insistant back there.
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on 2013-06-13 07:35 pm (UTC)...I bet you're mad at me though, aren't you? For doing what I did in the first place...I don't know what I was thinking, letting myself fall down that path and...letting myself get out of control. I should've thought about everyone else instead of myself.
[She sniffed a bit, trying to wipe any tears that almost rolled out of her eyes, but she looked up at Sayaka with a lot of what seemed like a sad smile.]
...what happened to me...what did I become, Kyouko?
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on 2013-06-14 12:12 pm (UTC).. She's not sure if he wants to answer her question, especially since that train of thought just now led to it again too. She still remembers that barrier, the witch in it.. Sayaka...
Kyouko swallows thickly. ]
Does it matter? No matter what happened, you're you. And you're here, and so am I. [ She's too tsun to plainly say she sacrificed her life for Sayaka. ] Don't ask stuff about things that don't matter, moron.
[ There's almost something more fond than harsh about that "moron" though. ]
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on 2013-06-15 04:16 pm (UTC)...you're right, I'm still me, aren't I? The person who's talking to someone like you. [She let out a small giggle, actually moving her hand to Kyouko's shoulder and giving it a little shove herself. Yeah, she's...herself once more, not that shell of a person she had become. She could actually be true to herself instead of cast away everything else.
...like her friends who tried to help her.]
Is Madoka okay? I didn't want her to see me like that at all...she must hate me too for what I did to you guys. But...I shouldn't worry too much about that for now, shouldn't I?
[But still, Madoka was her best friend...and she refused help from her...what was she to even do about something like that?]
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on 2013-06-17 11:49 am (UTC)You know how that girl is. Ya could do anything at all to her and she'd still care for you, that's the kinda friend she is. [ Even though Kyouko didn't talk to her a whole lot, she could tell from the conversation they had right before they went in. Those two seemed so close too, and that coupled with Madoka being so nice means there's no way she would be mad at Sayaka over anything. She'd probably only be sad that she turned into a witch. ] Even now, I bet she's still thinking of ya somewhere.
[ And who'll be thinking of her? She didn't leave anyone behind.. it'll just be like she vanished and nobody will even notice. Hah.. ]
But she's fine. Homura's with her. I don't really get that girl at all, but.. I've been able to tell she's not a bad person.
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on 2013-06-18 12:23 am (UTC)So, she's still smiling a bit at Kyouko's words, not exactly letting it drop a bit from hearing how Madoka was. And...well, Homura seemed like a reliable person, if not a bit mysterious, but if Madoka was with her...well, that was a-okay.]
That's just like her to worry, though. I wouldn't put it past her if she didn't actually worry about me...she must be sad, though...knowing I'm here.
[She sniffed a bit, still wiping some tears from her eyes as they fell a bit.] ...but...how did you get here? Did you die fighting a witch?
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on 2013-06-19 10:13 am (UTC)Her blood runs cold instinctively at the thought of all of that again. She does try to hide her reaction, but it's impossible since it happens before she even realises it. The best she can do is turn her face away from Sayaka, as if she's looking at something else while they're sitting there like this. ]
.. Yeah. [ ".. then please, show me a happy dream.." Her voice is a lot lower all of a sudden, more quiet. ] Something like that.
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on 2013-06-20 03:40 am (UTC)So, Sayaka's nudging Kyouko with her elbow, trying to get an a response out of her. It was then that Sayaka stopped her nudging, trying to remember back to the last time she had actually seen the red head. They were in the subway...and her Soul Gem was...
...no. Sayaka let out a tiny gasp, the sudden realization actually hitting her.]
...you didn't...die for me, did you...?
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on 2013-06-22 02:08 pm (UTC)O.. of course not! What kinda moron do ya think I am?! There's no way I'd just do that for you, you're getting the wrong idea! I--
[ "Just didn't want you to have to be alone." "Just didn't want you to have to suffer." Just...
.. Just.. ]
I just.. did something. I guess. [ LIKE THAT KIND OF VAGUE ANSWER WILL HELP ANYTHING. ]
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on 2013-06-23 04:03 pm (UTC)...what happened? You can't just do something that made you die. There has to be a reason, and you know what that reason is! Why aren't you telling me?!
[Her voice becomes more desperate, she wanted to know so badly...and to make sure that Kyouko really didn't die on her behalf...because she'd probably be a lot more at ease if she knew the truth...]
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on 2013-06-25 11:15 am (UTC)It makes her take a deep breath, and she grabs Sayaka's arm to try and pry her hand off her own arm. ]
If you wanna know so badly, I'll tell. Just sit down calmly, I'm not gonna deal with you freaking out all over me while I tell.
[ .. Another sigh. Man, she's not looking forward to this.. ]
Sayaka, what do ya think happened to you?
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on 2013-06-26 05:56 pm (UTC)Maybe a little bit more wouldn't kill her in the long run.]
...We were in the subway the last time I saw you. And...well, my Soul Gem... [She looked down at the palm of her free hand- not the one Kyouko's trying to pry off.]
...I...I remember it turning into...into a... [...She hesitated in saying these next words.]
...a Grief Seed.
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on 2013-06-29 12:09 pm (UTC)[ It's not difficult, after all. A Grief Seed belongs to a witch, it's what a witch is born from what a witch returns to after it's been beaten. Just like a Soul Gem is connected a magical girl. So for a Soul Gem to turn into a Grief Seed changes the person from normal to..
But she knows Sayaka would reach that conclusion by herself too, so in the end she just looks away to the side. ]
I fought you after that.
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on 2013-07-01 05:36 pm (UTC)...you idiot. You...didn't have to do that...
[Something began to make it's way down her cheek, something cold. She couldn't exactly point it out- ah. It was the same thing she was doing when she saw Kyouko from the last time, wasn't it? She was crying...she couldn't explain why she was, it just...
Either way, she's still looking at Kyouko through her tears, sniffs coming out here and there.] So, you killed me, huh? And in the end, you killed yourself over me, too?
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on 2013-07-02 01:53 pm (UTC)D.. don't be a moron, it's not like I'd kill myself. [ It's not really suicide.. well, in a way it was, but it was to stop Sayaka from just rampaging as a witch, to make her stop having to exist in that painful form and instead move on to the afterlife like this.. ]
I just.. didn't want ya to have to stay like that. As a witch. [ She almost raises her arms to grab the other girl, but in the end she doesn't. She can't. There's a weird feeling in her stomach, and for a moment she almost feels like crying too. ] After all, it sucks to be alone..
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on 2013-07-05 06:16 pm (UTC)It...doesn't feel nice to be alone at all. [Sayaka paused, trying to find the right words she wanted to say to Kyouko right now. Because this was a pretty big reveal on her part...but...
...Why doesn't she feel bad anymore, after hearing those words? She always thought Kyouko to be someone that would only act on her own thoughts, and solely think for herself. But...Sayaka is beginning to understand what's going on now.
...She cares for her, doesn't she?
It's a little hard for her to swallow for a moment. How was she supposed to react to this right now? ...the only thing that does seem fitting for the moment would be that her arms had found themselves wrapping itself around Kyouko's torso, bringing the girl in for a hug. She didn't know what compelled it in the first place, but...]
...Thank you. It doesn't seem like I'm alone anymore, though...
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on 2013-07-07 12:11 pm (UTC)Like you were alone all this time to begin with... That Madoka kid was always by your side, always worrying about you. And.. I... -- I looked at you and I only saw myself from a long time ago, so.. [ Her tone is soft against the other girl. ] Don't take it the wrong way, but I was looking after you all this time too. I'm just.. not good at saying it.
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on 2013-07-10 06:44 pm (UTC)You know...I really am going to miss Madoka. [She sniffs a bit, pulling herself a bit back, her hands on Kyouko's shoulders as she looks at her with a sad smile on her face.] ...but as long as we're together, like this, we won't ever be alone anymore, will we? Even if we had our past spats...I can look past that. So...um...thank you. Thank you so much.
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on 2013-07-11 07:03 am (UTC)But she really can't help herself, when she can at least sense just how grateful the other girl is she's at least got to grin a little. ]
What, you're just gonna forgive me for kicking your ass thrice that easily? You sure are a wuss, Sayaka.
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on 2013-07-14 03:04 am (UTC)[She definitely sounds flustered right now, a slight blush coming up to her face as she faces the other girl. And it was surprising, really, she had suddenly gained back her determination from back before she had her fall from grace. Maybe it was something she couldn't explain, but...]
B-besides, I'm not the one who's a wuss here, you're the one who tried to cheer me up and make this whole thing sappy in the first place, that would make you a big wuss!
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on 2013-07-15 01:41 pm (UTC)Yeah, I guess you're right. I said some pretty sappy stuff just now and back there too, and.. hey, that's your fault, it's you who makes me say that, y'know! Guess I gotta pay you back! [ Still with the same grin on her face she moves over to basically tackle Sayaka right to the ground, crawling over so she's hovering right over the girl with the same grin. ] See, I gotcha again already.